Hello everyone ^_^ Wolfie here... just need to inform you that i am moving as of this Monday but that is the good news.. the bad is that I have no internet at the new place, so I will be offline allot when I do get on I will be on to talk to my beautiful girlfriend Snaedis [link]
and my cute little pet kitty Talia [link]
tehe and my mummy Mistress of Wolves ^_^ [link]
Ah I truly love you all and will miss you so much.
Think I will use this time to let some feelings out.. I love my girls they are my world and all I care about is there happiness and for this reason I am not going to be in good moods when I cannot talk to them.. Always happens to me.
Hmmm well now I am moving in with my mum I will be sleeping in her lounge room... but I have an old friend who wants to share a place so I will be looking into that ^_^ should be interesting and scary.. I need to get to Canada so the first thing I need to do is talk to the Canadian embassy *thank you my Talia for telling me* and find out what I need to move and live in Canada.
I am torn a little, my heart is all over the place the need to hold my Snaedis is all but soul consuming.. I burn with this need but I am trying to be strong for your sake baby.. I love you so very much.. You mean everything to me.
My beautiful little kitty Talia :3 you are also everything to me and I adore you with all my heart and soul.. You help me to stay strong and to keep moving you fill an emptiness I did not know I even had until I met you and you submitted to me.
So many friends I have.. So many people I care for.. My puppy you know who you are and I care for you and your puppies so much.. ^_^ tell them there Uncle Wolfie will miss them greatly!
Mum..Even though we only share online blood you have been a true mother to me and I love you dearly for that.. Everyone please go show love to her!
Well I guess this is it.. It’s not goodbye! I will be back this is just a talk to you soon moment ^_^
*Waves smiles and starts singing “Show me the way to go home” as I walk out the door*

I got tagged by
Rules:

1. Publish [copy] these procedures.
2. You must state 8 things about yourself.
3. When you have ended the 'journal' you must choose 8 people and tag him/her.
4. Then it is necessary to go to his/her page and say to them that they have been tagged.

1: I am actually a perverted wolfie P: but i control myself good i think.
2: I am thinking of changing my name to my caricature in my story Demon.
3: I ish a witch though i go by the name Magi.
4: I'm a little hooked on Damien rice songs....
5: I got a bad case of writers block!
6: I have the star hots for Shilo from Repo! the genetic opera.
7: I want to learn French..
8: OH I ish writing in a black book called "My book of darkness"

That's about how random I can think of.
I tag:;

There is not much that can make me hurt but I would have to say that recently I have been thrown into some horrible moments... I should be writing right now but it’s become so hard to write when my muse is gone. *Sighs* what to do huh? Moving on is the only thing to do but why is it so hard? You know something... I can’t watch romantic movies or comedy’s that end in the romantic way... it actually hurts to watch them, how sad is that! I feel like I need to rant but really I don’t know what to be mad at... I mean I was told it would all end like this but did I listen? No... I ignored it because I thought this was what I had been searching for... I was wrong.
However I think I might know where my end is... that thing I have been searching for, for so long I can feel it getting closer! I’m sure it’s in Nova Scotia Canada! I’m sure this is good news for someone.
I just wish I knew and end to all the pain that deep inside me, that pain I thought I was finished with! This pain should have never come back I thought I had found me end. Found that sweet bliss I have been searching for ever since that night on the cliff...but I was wrong, it’s funny when you really think about it I mean *Shakes my head sadly* I’m not sure what I’m even talking about anymore... everything is just so hard and confusing for me I don’t even feel like a good Alpha anymore, I have lost my teeth it seems.
I would not say that I have become weak per say, more that I simply no longer care about anything. I find it hard at times to feel anything at all, regardless who I am talking to sometimes I simply can’t feel anything *Slumps in my chair* so they say there is a reason for everything but I don’t see it... what was the reason behind what’s going on in my life? Tell me that one.... why is it its happening to me now? You can’t answer that!
I am sorta happy, I know you are a wonderful woman my kitty and I will do better for you ^_^ when I actually get to talk to you..... I tell you long distance is a killer lol....
Anyway I’m not feeling this blog right now... so ima go... talk soon ya’ll!

My life's news :
HA.. fucking my life’s news huh you honestly want to know whats going on in my life do you? Ok then here it is... first the one woman i actually gave a fucking shit about up and lied to me and vanished! And i log onto a site and fucking WOW there she is online.... couldn’t even send me an email saying you know something like.. “all this time i didn’t fucking love you now fuck off and die” at least then i would not have wasted so much time flipping out about missing her!
ah well what ya gonna do huh??? Well I’m still planning on moving to live and wor in Canada just not going to say where or when....
RANT
WOW I’m so not doing this tonight but i will in two days once i have calmed down ok..
DA news:
Well I’m writing Demon 2 onto the laptop slowly and have decided its going to be uploaded piece by piece so you will have to keep an eye on my page to get the next part ^_^ also working on a few more things... but there still in the air so to say ^_^
Other news:
Well I’m single.... there’s my other news lmfao
Pet:

Wonderful friends:

My life's news :
Well this blog is being posted everywhere because I don’t have the internet to do one for all my sites.
First off I want to say I’m sorry!
I have not been online for some time now and it has taken its toll on me. I know I keep saying the same things over and over, but it’s only because I miss HER. I will try not to keep saying it but...there it is. I won’t be online for awhile still... I need to do so much to get my internet back.
There is also getting to Canada that is on my mind too! I need work...I can’t stand this waiting! It’s slowly killing me. I am doing a lot to try and get work, like trying to find a good cruise ship (Just a two year trip and I will have enough to support myself and Ayako in Canada until I have a stable job) Also if I could get a resort to sponsor me as a permanent employee it would help my chance’s! Then with all this I could save for a small place two bedroom ^_^ and then I would be home... a place where no one knows me... a place where I can start fresh and offcourse be able to bring you Ayako to Canada and we could try and live happy ^_^ I know it will happen... just takes time! So much fucking time!
AND yes I know there is a risk that we will not work together... BUT I will fight to be everything she needs, I will be the best Master, Gentle lover (when that time comes P: ) and friend she would want ^_^ It’s a lot of work too but I will not fail...I can’t...at the same time I have to NOT be clingy! Everyone needs there space^_^
Hmmm what else? I have and still am in a bit of a shit of a mood... I know why and a lot of you do as well but for those that don’t it’s none of your business! SO NO BULLSHIT OK JUST SHUSH!
OK... I will try to keep you all up to date on my internet ^_^
um those of you still waiting on a story or poem I won’t say sorry I have just been really lazy lol I will make up for it though ^_^
Disappointment is something I am getting used to now... being told something and then being deprived of it just knowing that it is so close but I am not allowed to touch it! Sometimes it is better to be forgotten! At least then you can’t get hurt by misjudged good deed’s... I AM SICK OF AUSTRALIA! All it has is emptiness and coldness... day by fucking day little by painful little the people that keep me here show me just why I need to get out!
Sometimes I wonder why do I bother with friends? As it is the last of my friends from the old days has shown me just why you should not care about those you don’t truly know and why you should never meet them! Its better this way, at least this way there is no chance of getting hurt later on...like me...always me...I sometimes wonder why I don’t just turn my phone off... That way I won’t get good news that turns to shit in an instant!
I am sure of this now!
I am getting out of Australia if it’s the last thing I do, then maybe the hurt will stop! Then I can leave my past behind me where it belongs!
Cry all you want I am finished with false hope that just maybe a dream will come true when really it’s just another nightmare!
reminds me of a song I wrote “lease god’s turn me to stone so I don’t have to feel” so true at this moment, sure writing all this helps a great deal...but I can’t take it all away!
Soon everyone will be home and once again I have to smile and pretend that I am not so empty inside! Not that they care...but...I don’t know why I bother? Maybe it’s just if I keep pretending I might fool myself into believing it.
This is one long ass blog! But then I have been gone for some time now haven’t I!
Who cares! Fucking bullshit and I know no one really cares! It’s ok...I am used to it now...just another part of my life to love ^_^ at least I’m trying!
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